HELL YEAH BIATCHES!!!! Im back. Let me break down what Ive just been through. After finishing my usual wankathons (which have to stop btw), I checked my rss feed and browsed through a few of my fav blogs, one which happens to be written by a dude who I am absolutely certain is in one of my classes at uni. I don't know the dude but would love to meet him (no homo) because we share common interests, he's heavily into the A-Ron, NYC, Heron Preston, Fixed Gear bikes type of steez. So he's basically a really cool dude from what I can see from his blog. ANYWAAAAAAAAAAYYYYSS. As I was saying, I'm reading this dude's blog and happen to just click one of the links on the comments section which then forwards me to this other dude's blog.
This new dude (let's call him A because I'm too lazy to get the blog name) has a post on an Unofficial Nike ID party and some pics to go along. There happened to be a Facebook group dedicated to this party so I basically clicked and waited. Boom. I immediately thought of Goldie locks.
I haven't had a oneitis EVER really but this chick here is basically one of the prototypes for my ideal girl. Ok that last sentence made no sense. Basically she's WIFEY status.
Anyways, I click the illustrious group and join. I see the names of the organisers which so happens to be the Nike ID staff that work in Niketown London. I click one of the female names in hopes of finding her. ERRRRRRRRRRRRR nope. Tried again...........................Gabriella Golds.
FUCK ME!!!!..its her....lol. Dude I don't even know this chick and I'm like yes she's mine..lol.
Anyways, I do the obligatory snooping of her photos and other "important" info. My manhood sensed correctly but there was a bonus. SHE'S A TWIN!!!!!!!!!!! Damn...
The name fits, the body is amazing, cute face, lovely green eyes, golden curly hair, light skinned mixed race babe. What more do i need. I basically start to obsess about her friends etc etc. To workout what she may be into. I basically do this stupid approval seeking ANAL PROBE on myself ( No homosexual) for about an hour. I think 'damn this girl is to nang. What do i do? I wanna be her man blah blah blah'. I think to myself she's a hypebeasts prototype in that she is into the scene deep so you have common interests and LOADS to chat about. Perfect GF material.
Then I do some further Sherlocking (see what I did there..Sherlock was a...FUCK it never mind) and find her and these hood rat niggas from the bits (South im guessing) doing the obligatory 'NAPA (insert year of debauchery) trip. HMMMM...and here I am thinking this girl is probably posh and is not into hood niggas. Boy was I wrong.
I hit the LSS and click a random post by one of the suicidal individuals on the board whom after reading his shit isn't I'm afraid..lol? Anyways, man dem is complaining something serious about him not being able to feel worthy in the presence of 9s and 10s. After scrolling past the usual flame replies I find a sweet link by none other than LSS Lord Mega Pork of the Swinedom.
BOOM!..
Read....
4 concepts:
-Player not spectator (source: Tim RSD)
- Be present, clear your mind (source: Eckhart Tolle)
- No penitence or resistance (source: RSD, Bullboy, Me)
- Let women inspire you (source: Gunwitch, David Deida)
read the first then the second and finally......
BOOOOMM!!!
NO PENITENCE or RESISTANCE
"If you've watched the blueprint, you will know that resistance is an emotion. Just like happiness or sadness. Resistance is the emotion you feel when your environment / reality is not to your liking. It comes across as an uncomfortable feeling. A passiveness that shuts you down and restricts you from action.Penitence is another emotion. It is the feeling of beating yourself up over something that you have or have not done.To me these two emotions are linked and neither emotion pertains to having FUN. The fact is that you will NOT always like your environment and it is inevitable that you will make mistakes. That you will freeze or not act when you promised yourself or that you will fuck up. But unfortunately, being a perfectionist is pointless in PU, so what you should do instead is deal with the emotions when they turn up.1. Again, be self aware. Notice if you are feeling either emotion. The tricky thing about our emotions is that they are such a deep part of ourselves that we often don't notice if we are feeling a certain way. If you feel them, cut them off immediately.2. Realise that if entertained, either resistance or penitence will NOT help you. There is no point entertaining either emotion. Notice I'm not saying feel, because you can't help that, but rather let those emotions get the better of you. Since they will not help you, when you notice them, you need to quickly get on top of them.3. Eckhart Tolle says that if you experience something you have two options, you can accept it, or you can change it. Being able to clear your mind using the techniques I mention above will start you off. The next step is then to quickly jolt yourself into action.A practical example: You promised yourself that you will open the next hotty but you don't. So you start to beat yourself up about it. But then you notice that you are beating yourself up about it. So you say to yourself, fuck that, clear your mind and relax. Walk away for a bit and open another girl.The same goes for resistance. Except with resistance you more often have to accept what's going on. For example, you're in a club with hot girls but you don't like the music. What do you do? Bitch about the music, or just get on with it and just appreciate the environment for what it is?Another resistance example is you want to get into "state", but because you want it, your current emotion is not good enough, you create resistance to your current emotion, and consequently you can't get into "state". Solution: don't worry about state. Enjoy the moment for what it is, appreciate the women around you, then act."
Terrible paraphrasing, I know I know, but I couldn't sum it up without posting the article.There it is. The Shaytan that has been consuming me, the gremlin inside of me that kept growing every time I entered a club or any other social venue. It's the main fucking problem I put myself into daily and until now had no idea how to deal with. I tried different mantras; telling myself I'd be fine and that it didn't matter. None of which have worked so far. This has been the number one issue that has practically killed all of my interactions.
What a life-saver. Thanks porky.
P.s. I'd like to add that the other points which included letting yourself go in terms of being attracted to females and not restraining yourself was insightful. Also to have loads of reference experiences so that your subconscious is aware that this is not a new and scary proposition but as natural as breathing. Sex is just that, natural and healthy.
Onto other news.......
When initially reading the post which led me to the gem stated above, I was still on that approval seeking mission. My aim: To find out how to seduce women that are in scenes. What I failed to realise but do now is that we all are part of scenes...DUHHHHHHHH.
HAHAH...what complete self-rape. I'm into the party scene, PUA. The difference between me and Gabriella Golds is that she is basically expressing herself thorough action. She is actively pursuing her dreams. Whereas I was a recluse, until now that is. NO MORE!! I've tortured myself long enough. Most of my teens had been spent online and actively awkward behaviour. Well that is in the past. As Tolle said "The past is a previous manifestation of NOW" or something along those lines. I have been actively been inactive for fear of ridicule and nonacceptance.
Well fuck that. Months and months of reading articles, forums, books, listening to audios has finally hit me on a deep level. Its all been internalised. From now on I am James Devoe becoming Moe Warsame. Ive kept this alter ego of mine hidden for too long time. Flashes of JD have been seen from time to time. Well it's time LORD IT UP. Irrelevant let's fuck some biatches!!. GL, as incredibly sexy she is, is just another girl. Seriously, she is one amongst A MILLION or so 6-7s out there.
Amongst the points stated above was a suggestion that I treat all physically beautiful girls as 7s and if after engaging in convo with her you find out she is cool then she is bumped up to an 8.
Brilliant stuff.
It's time to LORRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRD!!
In other areas......
For now though, I am going to do the demonic confidence course to overcome my approach sticking point. I will follow 'the newbie guide to PUA' guideline thread on theplace.bz. To help me along the way. I will read as many Field Reports and Lay reports as possible. I will post an FR here on a daily basis and then I will start to post on theLSS forums once I get past the inital sticking points. I will go out solo from now on twice a week to bars and clubs around London.
I will befriend staff and locals. I will remain independent of the outcome of my approaches. No more needy shit. Fuck that!!
I am sorting out other areas of my lfie also including, health, wealth and general social life. I am utilising all of the tools available to me in terms of time management. I am trying one thing I am shitscared of every week, including flirting with a store assistant, seducing a girl in the daytime going for a same day date and kissing her, check out different scenes in the nightclub circuit, befriend a dude in the cue of a club, setting up a day 2 with a girl and pushing for a lay, hosting a party, sky-dive, horse ride, surf, ollie, befriend strangers in local pubs and bars, driving a motor bike, go to a festival by myself, travel by myself, move out of my mum's house, go to a tango class, muay thai class, brazilian jiu jitsu class etc.
That's all I can think of right now and should be more than enough for a year. However I am starting with basic shit first. 5 sets per day. I will work on eyecontact in all interactions that I have whether listening or talking or lazer eyes, I am working on voice projection aswell; speaking louder and more clearly. In time this will all internalise and tada! James Devoe will commence.
I am starting today, I will go to Kingston Bentall Centre and do the basic approaches there.
Where is the post office?? 5 sets of girls.
I will report back on my findings later today.
